BaBy MiTcHe's bLoG

"Destiny or Choice?!"

"SERENDIPITY" - is it really a destiny or it's a choice?!...

...me and my mom used to have this argument.. everytime we have conversations about Life... if everything that's going on is part of our destiny or it's our own choice... i always end up on the "CHOICE" side... 'coz for me everything that is happening into our lives is our own choice... we we're the one who is making the decisions on what we want to do and what we want to happen if we do this thing or that thing... it is somehow in our plans... coz we are the one who's building our own lives... even if the situation wants us to be on this way if you want to be on the other way... it's your choice... it's your decisions... that's why it happens right?! Like what happened to me few months ago... maybe it is destined for me not to go back home yet but it is really my choice not to go to... 'coz i can go but i choose to stay... and that choice which i am very thankful... coz now i realize i am not ready yet... and now i am enjoying my life... staying the same as i was since birth... and lucky enough to crossed path this "somebody" that always put smiles, not only smiles but laughs in me... i know he knows who he is... and our choice to become more closer than i think we can be... coz it's our want that keep the communications open everytime...

But in the contrary, my mom's side... it's our "DESTINY" that brought us where we are right now - our happiness, pains, sorrows, and success in life... it's because whether we like it or not, it just happens coz it is meant to happened... just like me and that "somebody"... we both used to believe it was destiny that let our path crossed together... [nagtagpi nga raw eh...hahaha]... and i'm so thankful for that...

...i went to the mall this afternoon, i was in one store of the mall when i accidentally came across with this movie "serendipity" - a dvd copy... [actually i have the vhs copy but for some reasons i don't know where it is...]... now, i was holding it... thinking if i should buy it or not... thinking it's a waste of money since i've watched it twice or thrice already so no big deal... but on the other side of my mind, it's the last copy and i've been looking for it for a long time since i couldn't find my vhs copy... to make the story short, i end up buying it coz i thought it's gonna be a good collection and since i'm gonna use the gift card that Aunt Liza gave me on my birthday, it'll be nice spending it with something i can keep... make sense huh?!.. but my point is... it's really my choice to buy it right?... maybe in some point it's destiny coz i wouldn't have seen it if only with Marcus - the kid i am taking good care of... coz he stop with those music cd's for kids and that's where i found the serendipity... weird huh?! hahaha...

...nweiz, i watched it - "SERENDIPITY" - it's one of my fave love story at all times... it's about finding their destiny... finding their "soulmates" ... for me, it is clear that it is really their own choice that brought them back together again... coz after that one night they spent together, without knowing each other's name, and decided to let their fate to let them meet again, they've got their own lives... both engaged and will be marrying soon... but still never give up looking for this $5 bill with the guy's name and phone number in it and this book titled "Love in the time of Cholera" where the girl wrote her name and phone number too and sell it the other day... up to the last days of their life being single, they tried everything just to find it... just to find the sign... signs that they were really meant to be... signs that they were "soulmates" ... "maybe the absence of a sign is a sign" - one of the lines in the movie where Cusack was almost giving up in finding that signs... and to make the movie short - coz i want you guys to see the movie for yourself if you haven't watch it yet... they both found the $5 bill and the book which is actually caused by their love ones... isn't strange?! oh boy... it was really a very coincidence that the guy's fiance gave him the book as a present before the wedding and the girl's bestfriend have the $5 bill... oh now i'm on the destiny's side... hahahaha... uh-uh-uh... not yet... coz the guy called the wedding off in last minute... and since the girl is trying to locate where the guy is... they both met up at the skating ring where they spent their first meet few years ago... see?! it's their own choice to be together again for the second time around... though i admit, that there are some scenes there that it seems that fate has really brought them back together again...

...'coz the thing is... DESTINY is a matter of CHOICE...

...oh, well, well, well... i'll give it up to you...

...is it DESTINY or CHOICE?!

...it's up to you... it's your choice or your destiny... ;-)

"catch me i'm falling"

I don’t know why
But when I look in your eyes
I felt something that seems so right
You’ve got yours I’ve got mine
I think I’m losing my mind
'Cause I shouldn’t feel this way

Catch me, I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me, I’m falling for you

How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
And I can't go along pretending
that love is in here to stay
catch me im falling for you

If I could just walk away
Without you from day to day
I would die just thinking of you
I think that we’ll never be
More than friends, you and me
But why do I feel this way

Catch me, I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me, I’m falling for you

Maybe someday I’ll see
Why love did this to me
'Cause I can’t go along,pretending
That love is in here to stay
Catch me, I’m falling for you
Catch me, I’m falling for you

And is it wrong for me to feel this way
'Cause I don’t know what to do without you
I’M FALLING FOR YOU
Catch me, I’m falling for you

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I'm falling for you

Bad Day...

Happy - this is for every 26th of the month... but now, i don't have the guts to even think it was a happy one...

Things are getting too much complicated between us... our last talked was terrible... and hearing your voice over to the message you've left on my phone makes it more miserable...

i've always thought that we can make it til the end though we're miles away... it's just a matter of constant communicating... but look at us now?... lots are missing - i know you know that... things changes... feelings changes... dreams changes... plans changes... everything changes... and DISTANCE keeps it more complicated... i don't even know what you and i wanted... the plans that we created... and the dreams we've always been dreaming of... i guess, i'm now entering the real reality of life... waking up in the middle of a nice and beautiful dream...

i had sacrificed lots to this relationship... thinking i have chosen my own destiny... a destiny that is worth fighting for... a destiny that will fulfill my heart's desire...

i'll keep a distance for now... i think this is what we needed...

we always make things up... we always do... but whatever happens between the two of us, either the good way or the bad way... i know i've done my part... i know i've done more than my part... ^^

KuLeTz ;-)

it all start up with a simple view of friendster profile... got curious whom he/she was... send a smile, asked a simple question answerable by yes or no... then started exchanging messages... til we didn't realize how addicted we were with each other... mega fs... mega ym... mega text... at mega talk... yan tama na ko... d na meka talk... hahahaha!

i never thought this kulitan ever would come this far... as far as level 10? nyahahaha... i know u know wat i mean... being the lullaby (ay mali, drugz pala...hahaha) at night... and being the alarm clock in the morning... oh db anlufet?!... talking everything and anything under the sun... nanjan ung magsakalan, magpatayan (fave mo ever...nyahahaha), magbilangan (weakness q nman ever), magkantahan (oh db sabi mo danda ng boses ko pag binabasa? waaaaaaa...)... basta dami pa yan... mejo nakalimutan ko na sa sobrang dami ng naging topics natin... yan na nga bang sinasabi ko eh... BAWAL ANG BEEF! BAWAL ANG PORK! BAWAL ANG BEANS! kya nagkaka-memory gap tayo... nyahahaha! pero db nga ang sabi nila, masarap daw ang bawal?... naging mega topic din 'to... hahahaha!

i really can't imagine how we jive along... having the same thoughts... being able to understand what each other meant... being able to joke around without being offended... coz it's more on having fun... FUN... FUN... FUN... which i admit, what i really loves in you the most... coz all i wanna do is Laugh...

there are times na i find you so sweet... nakaka-diabetes gaya ng sampalok mo...hahaha...  and though i hate to admit it... sometimes i almost fall...  kasi d naman talaga mahirap makasundo at mahalin ang katulad mo... that's for sure... nung sinabi mo nga ang linyang... "No alam q kung saan aq lu2gar dont worry..ikaw c _____ aq p rin ang ___ mo.. pramiz.. yaw q din nman mgkasakitan tau.. frends nga db..." that's the time i really realized how good you are as a person and as a friend... i think i am home... even without seeing you personally, i just want to say... can you just be my guy BESTFRIEND? coz i've always wanted to have a guy na bestfriend... though i have, but not this much of the moments we have had... coz in you, i can be as jolly as dyalibi (db d2 mo gus2 kta treat sa isang batok na hinihingi koh?... hehehe...)... basta... i always keep on saying this, pero d talaga ako magsasawang sabihin... "D BEST KA TALAGA EVER!!!"... as i've said, swerte ung girl na mamahalin mo...

in this short period of time being my kakulitan ever... it seems like i've known you all my life... and hoping it won't ever last... gaya nga ng sabi mo db? walang iwanan... lagi mo koh isasama kahit san ka magpunta... kahit pa wala akong shoes... hahaha...

i'm so thankful talaga nagtagpo ang landas natin... kahit late na.... hahaha... thanx to ______'s account...

so pano, i need to close this blog na...

kahit gasgas na sau 'to... hope you'll STAY THE SAME... and you promise me, you will... thanx...

keep in touch otei...

muah*.*

>>oooppss... teka my pahabol pa koh... nyahahaha... kc i heard this song... mejo corny pero likes koh ung lyrics nya esp. ung chorus kya i still want to dedicate it to you... if you get the chance to read this, ask mo koh, and i'll text you the title... ok? hehehe... ^^

"One More Chance"

Finally, after long months of waiting, i had seen the movie i've been dying to watch since it was first seen in Philippine theater - "ONE MORE CHANCE"... The thing that John Lloyd Cruz and Bea Alonzo (i'm a fan of them esp. in their soap - Maging Sino Ka Man) stars the movie, makes me so anxious to watch it...and now this is it... :D

At the beginning of the story, i'm kinda starting to put myself in the scene - that i can relate to the story...it brings out the teenage heart in me and finding myself giggling, laughing, almost cried to some sad part and falling in love the way i used to be...and i know i always been had...^.^

i love the Popoy character - an engineer, played by John Lloyd, i find him sweet, responsible, thoughtful, caring and so much in love with Basha - an architect, played by Bea...Everything seems so perfect between them...- their goals, their wedding plans, their house-to-be...everything! But Basha breaks up with him knowing she needs some space and wanting to find herself without Popoy's shadow... since they've been a couple since their university years...and that really breaks Popoy's heart...he tried to move on - that's when Tricia played by Maja Salvador came to his life...Seeing Popoy and Tricia together, Basha started to realize that she still loves Popoy and that she wants him back to her life... and to make the story short - Popoy though been really hurt before by Basha, finds himself still loving her and can't get her out of his heart and mind, broke up with Tricia - who has been so understanding... and the rest is history...^.^

"You'll never know the importance of a person in your life until he/she was gone" - that's the lesson i think the movie wants us to realize - we've been there before (jobert and i) 7 years ago...hahaha! Another thing is, in a relationship both sides needs some space to grow - not being one in control of everything and the other one in his/her shadow as the follower - which is as of now, ours is in this kind of relationship - me being the one in control of everything and him being the follower...but honestly, i find it good sometimes - hahaha! ;)

Anyways, i really love this movie...actually we've watch it twice today - sunday, march 9...and i made a copy for myself and for the family too!!! hahaha! my mom, joel and ate grace loves it too!!! ^.^ it's one of my fave movie ever... and that i want Jobert to watch this movie too - 'coz i know he'll gonna love it too! :D

Here's some of their romantic lines:

"She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best and you chose to break my heart..." - Popoy

"Ako naman ang may gusto nito diba? Bakit ang sakit sakit? ang totoo umaasa pa rin ako na sasabihin mo sa akin na ako pa rin, ako na lang, ako na lang ulit." - Basha

- it's about how true love waits for, hopes for and needs          ONE MORE CHANCE

"You aNd Me aGaiNst tHe wOrLd"

             "You and me against the world"...that's how our relationship goes... it's been quite a long time since we've known each other... from that day til now, nothing's change... the way others see us... the way other thinks of this relationship... the way others had judge you... the way others thinks of what the future might bring... i know, i got their point and they might be right... but i just can't stop loving you, i just can't leave u like that to grant their wish... we've been in so much sacrifices for holding on to this relationship, and i don't wanna give you up... not now... not now...

             You don't have much to offer as what others say and see... but by being there when i needed you most.. when i needed someone to talked to, when i needed a shoulder to cry on, when i needed help with some of my problems or troubles, when i needed somebody to listen, u lend me your ear and try to cheer me up when everything's not quite alright... comfort me, give me courage and think that there's nothing to fear about... you give me the strength to go on with my life and believe in myself that i can do it.. it's you whom i run with when i want out of what i can call like a prison to me, and had the freedom i've always wished for... see?! you got lots of things to offer..^_^ that others don't know, because of judging you only for what they see...

             i know, sometimes i've depended on you too much, but it's only you who can understand me, who knows and whom i can express my true feelings.. where i can be me as me.. it's only you whom i found the things i can not find.. and being with you makes me feel loved, makes me feel complete and makes me feel the true meaning of happiness...

             Now tell me, how can i just forget you, how can i just forget the person whom i had entrusted my love, my life and my happiness with?! how can i just get you out of my life when almost all my life revolved in you?! how can i just break our promises of love?!... they might not know what we've been through and judge me and you... but as long as i know that there's nothing wrong falling in love with a guy like you, nobody can stop me from doing it so.. not now that you've change for a better you, for a better man, even though it means sacrificing your own ego and start from where you'd stop and try to proved them that you still had a dream for yourself and for your future.. and that makes me so proud of you!

              We might be "YOU AND ME AGAINST THE WORLD" now... but if the time comes that i am ready to face all the consequences., ready to face the people whom from the very beginning is not happy and had always been against you.., i will fight for this love no matter what... it might not be now.., but it's gonna be too soon... ^_^            

            

WhEn wiLL i sToP LoViNg yOu?!

Here i am again...trying to be so strong...trying to mean everything...trying to proved everybody that i can...trying to ignore every words i see...trying to fight my feelings...though i know i can't...i really just can't...

Loving too much makes you stupid they say...yeah i agree with that...it really makes me stupid...that sometimes even though i'm deeply hurt i still don't learn how to hate...i forgive, forget and try to place the pain at the back of my mind and learn to love them again...it makes me feel so weak even i'm strong...it makes me learn to give without expecting anything in return 'til i'm so damn tired that i think i have nothing else to offer... and though i know that even the whole world's seems against with this love i still try to fight for it and make myself believe that this love is worth fighting for and that we can make it 'til the end...only to realize bit by bit..."is it really worth my time? my feelings? my efforts? my sacrifices? my love?! is it really worth fighting for?!"

When will i find the courage to stop, leave and move on? when will i stop hoping that someday, somehow everythin's gonna be alright? when will i learn to realize that "it's enough!!! it's getting too much!" when everytime i utter those words i just can't bear the pain thinking we'll just gonna end up this way...when will i learn to accept the facts that sometimes things are really not meant to be? when will i stop from being stupid? when will my heart stop from being so foolish? and most of all, when will i stop loving you?!

10 ThiNgs i HaTe aBoUt yOu...

i hate the way you treat me, the way you cut your hair

i hate when you always drive your motorcycle

i hate when you stay up late and don't even know your whereabouts

i hate you everytime you broke your promise

i hated when it seems you're fooling around

i hated when you lie

i hated when you makes me so much worried, even worst when you make me cry

i hated when you're not around and infact you didn't text or called

but mostly, i hate you when i don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all...

- MisSiN' My BaBy -

"When i woke up this morning and remembered we we're apart, i almost stayed in bed...i should have...everywhere i go, i see lovers hand in hand, laughing, cuddling... and i feel sad that i'm not in your arms where i belong... if i'd never fallen in love with you, i'd be fine... lonely, but coping. But you showed me the power of true love, and now any day i can't look into your eyes, hear your voice, or feel your hand holding mine, i feel deprived. Sometimes it's really hard getting through these times without you. But, when i do, i'm going to make up for that lots of lost time... just hold on... i know we can make it through baby... i know we can make it through."